FEEL MY HEARTBEAT

Preview for Future Blogging

2010-01-27T23:52:00.004+08:00

Well.. my blog has not been update bout more than 1 year..
wondering want to start all over..

well.. as what i've planned i'll change my title of the blog to "MY LIFE JOURNEY" after i reach Taiwan..

and i'll make it as photo blogging..
more pics.. less words..

i think its more suit me in that way..
cause i always felt feelings and emotions are so hard to describe with words..

to me is Undescribe-able..

forgive me for all these nonsense.. =p

thx all.. =D

Nitez..

WHY?

2010-01-27T00:32:00.005+08:00

why im starting to blog again? n changing my blog page??
cause my close friends all having blogaholic-ing decease recently.. =p
dun get confuse i create that word by my own..

well just a short notice/ update..

will blog properly next time.. haha

nitez folks.. God bless..

ηєω уєαя,ηєω lιƒє

2010-01-25T15:05:00.003+08:00

Gues what? a sudden update from someone who dun like to write about herself..
nothing big deal for this update.. but just to make it a bit of sign of life..

as what my title wrote.. new year new life..
i already overcome my pains last year but still..
i din update my blog.. haha

well.. new year n new goals n plans..
what plans do i have? well i think i wont write it down here maybe a few will do..
and goals..

well to be continue in the next post..
now just a "trailer".. haha

see when i got the blogging mood to blog..

sorry folks..

God bless..

Rainning atmosphere...

2009-12-06T02:21:00.003+08:00

speechless..
been keeping myself away from my heart..
but It stays..

cant let out..
felt that i will collapse..

too many things happen..

Sorry my Friends..

2009-05-05T00:50:00.004+08:00

Sorry my Dear frens.. im not use to update blog.. ><..
or can say that i dun express anythin outloud.. ><..
like to share in personal.. haha

as everyone knows that i got my new pet,,
n its not a cat this time is a dog.. wahahaha
Fiannyl get 1 Toy poodle.. i wan it since i was small..
but din manage to get i when i was small coz my family thought tat these dogs living fes is more expensive than human n hard to take care..
but thx to my frens that havin dogs.. they taught my alot n i felt its not tat hard to rare.. xD
love u girls n guys n Chester..

so.. now lets talk some bout my feelings recently..
can i describe it as.. Lost? Down? or.. not doing good enough..

maybe i pushin myself too much.. in mentally.. should not think too much n affect my emotions..

its time for me again to Lean on God..
n focus back n look up to God's will..

n havin flu n fever recently.. all askin same question.. izit get swine desease.. WAKAKAKAKA
no la.. jus normal flu.. as usual everymonth i sure wil sick 1 time.. my Body is too weak.. do pray for me.. ><

n my dancemate.. lookin forward for our future teamwork n being together..
God bless my frens n him..

Thx God for everythin..

NEW Blog SiTE!!

2008-12-30T21:03:00.003+08:00

my new blog!!! http://blog.hellokitty.com.my/rebecca900630

new email address rebecca900630@hellokitty.com.my

well.. i think alot of ppl will start thinkin y am i openin a new blog since im so lazy n hardly update my blog.. LOLZ!!

well.. i jus say tat is.. i love Hello Kitty alot since i was small.. n now finally i found a official Hello Kitty blog site.. xD

yea maybe can say jus change blog themes n etc.. but i jus like it.. a hello kitty email address n blog..

well.. i'll try my best to blog more in this blog n also my new blogsite..

this new blogsite will be mostly bout my Life journey..... bout my dance life..

n this blog will bout my whole life.....

TAGGED AGAiN

2008-12-08T02:33:00.002+08:00

1. Person who tagged you is?
Wong Pik Yee

2. Your relationship with him?
sister.. a fren that cares for me alot.. really appreciate her.. ^^

3. Five impressions of him?
a. Caring
b. Smart
c. to me she's a patient person tat wilin to lend her ears to me.. ahahaha [poor she, God bless!! xD]
d. good grades in her studies n her chinese very good.. coz mine oni until primary six.. wakakaka
e. becomin more n more beautiful n mature.. [she always do.. ^^]

4. The most memorable thing he has done for you?
always willin to listen to my probs complains.. sry gal! ><

5. Most memorable thing she has said to you?
miss me so mush coz didnt see me for weeks.. n now probably months.. aahahahah

6. If he becomes your lover, you will?
we're not lesbian =.=

7. If he becomes your lover, thing she has to improve on would be?
ntg coz she wont be my lover..

8. If they become your enemy, you will?
i will repent 1st n Pray

9. What is it you want to tell her now?
thx Gal.. love u so much.. thx for everythin.. ^^

10. Your overall impression on her is?
wont stop learnin..

11. How do you think people around you will feel?
the ans still da same..cant control them.. n cant really care so much..

12. What do you love about yourself?
that im born in a christian family tat able to hear the word of God when i was small..

13. What do you hate about yourself?
lack of confidence

14. The most ideal person you want to be.
being myself n not tryin to become anyone else..

15. For people who love and care for you, say something to them.
thx God tat He prepared u all in my life.. thx for ur care n love.. if i didnt appreciate pls forgiv me.. thx for acceptin such a imperfect me..

16. Tag ten people:
can i skip this??!!
i jus copy this from the previous post..

i.Ally Wan
ii. Amanda
iii. Elaine
iv. Esther
v. Exuan
vi. Jeffrey
vii. Sze Ung
viii.
ix.
x.

17. Who is 6 having a relationship with?
hmm.. not sure bout it..

18. Is 9 a male or female?
None of the above.

19. If 8 and 10 are together, would it be a good thing?
.....

20. What is 2 studying about?
MassCom

21. When was the last time you had a chat with 3?
wow.. at Joshua camp?

22. What kind of music band does 8 like?
@@

23. Does 1 have any siblings?
yup..

24. Will you woo 3?
=.=.. y should i?

25. How about 7?
nope

26. Is 4 single?
not sure.. i think yes..

27. What is the surname of 5?
Lau

28. What is a hobby of 10?
(@x@)

29. Does 5 and 9 get along well?
i hav no idea bout this.. LOLZ!!

30. Where is 2 studying at?
TARC

31. Talk about something for 1?
erm.. friendly girl.. din meet her for a long time.. but good thing she love God more now.. ^^

32. Have you tried developing feelings for 8?
....

33. Where does 9 live?
><

34. What colour does 4 like?
wow... pink? i gues.. sry su fen.. ><

35. Are 1 and 5 best friends?
well.. not best but good frens.. ^^

36. Does 6 have any pets?
yes!! his pet live in a coconut shell.. dunno wat its call..

37. Is 7 the sexiest person in the world?
hmm.. not sexy but cute.. xD

38. What is 10 doing now?
=.=..

TAGGED

2008-12-08T01:51:00.005+08:00

It has been awhile i didnt blog..
coz..
too lazy.. LOLZ!
sry guys..

anyway.. today jus celebrate my youngest Bro Birthday n my parents Anniversary..
n kinda free now..

So.. i'll do this tag..

1. Person who tagged you is?
Caleb Chandra Pillay

2. Your relationship with her?
err..Friends..

3. Five impressions of her??
thin, like to be alone[recently], handsome[should i say this?], talented, love God

4. The most memorable thing she has done for you?
a lot..encouragin me always..

5. Most memorable thing she has said to you?
=.=.. must i answer this one??!! @@

6. If she becomes your lover, you will?
ahahahahaha..i'll accept him If he's the 1 that God prepared for me..

7. If she becomes your lover, thing she has to improve on would be?
grow?

8. If they become your enemy, you will?
not happy cause i dont like enemies.. will pray hard.. haha

9. What is it you want to tell her now?
Be strong, concentrate on ur studies n no worries we will meet some day no matter wat situation..

10. Your overall impression on her is?
OMG~ y these ques so hard for me to ans..[pls dun misunderstood, i din hate him or dislike him]
err..Good guy? lolz!!!

11. How do you think people around you will feel?
well.. dunno.. cant control them.. n cant really care so much..

12. What do you love about yourself?
that im born in a christian family tat able to hear the word of God when i was small..

13. What do you hate about yourself?
not confident enough ><..

14. The most ideal person you want to be.
being myself n not tryin to become anyone else..

15. For people who love and care for you, say something to them.
thx God tat He prepared u all in my life.. thx for ur care n love.. if i didnt appreciate pls forgiv me.. thx for acceptin such a imperfect me..

16. Tag ten people:
=.=||.. not much frens for me to tagged n they are the ones who tagged me or given tagged by others..

i.Ally Wan
ii. Amanda
iii. Elaine
iv. Esther
v. Exuan
vi. Jeffrey
vii. Sze Ung
viii.
ix.
x.

17. Who is 6 having a relationship with?
hmm.. not sure bout it..

18. Is 9 a male or female?
None of the above.

19. If 8 and 10 are together, would it be a good thing?
.....

20. What is 2 studying about?
MassCom

21. When was the last time you had a chat with 3?
wow.. at Joshua camp?

22. What kind of music band does 8 like?
@@

23. Does 1 have any siblings?
yup..

24. Will you woo 3?
=.=.. y should i?

25. How about 7?
nope

26. Is 4 single?
not sure.. i think yes..

27. What is the surname of 5?
Lau

28. What is a hobby of 10?
(@x@)

29. Does 5 and 9 get along well?
i hav no idea bout this.. LOLZ!!

30. Where is 2 studying at?
TARC

31. Talk about something for 1?
erm.. friendly girl.. din meet her for a long time.. but good thing she love God more now.. ^^

32. Have you tried developing feelings for 8?
....

33. Where does 9 live?
><

34. What colour does 4 like?
wow... pink? i gues.. sry su fen.. ><

35. Are 1 and 5 best friends?
well.. not best but good frens.. ^^

36. Does 6 have any pets?
yes!! his pet live in a coconut shell.. dunno wat its call..

37. Is 7 the sexiest person in the world?
hmm.. not sexy but cute.. xD

38. What is 10 doing now?
=.=..

God's L♡ve | Ministry | Commitment

2008-10-22T02:07:00.009+08:00

it has been awhile i didnt update my blog..
Here's somethin but my recent life, ministry..

as wat know bout ministry since i started to serve..
n this is the courage for me to serve God until now..
this is 1 of my courage to ministry

God will blessed us in our ministry..
wit God's grace im sure we can balance our daily routine btw servin
n even get blessed in both side..

wat i'm stil learnin from my exp..
when u're enterin a new ministry..
pray b4 accpetin it.. see wat God's leadin..

the voive of my he♡rt..

as for my case now..
i dun nid rewards from my ministry..
but to me i think as a leader they should be encouragin but not discouragin..
coz leaders wil influence us alot..
so jus hope my leaders dun keep depressin me..
sry no offense to any1..

anyway im stil learnin to trust God
coz human wil let us down but God wont..

this bible verse God ask Yuying(Joshua13) to tel me today..

Psalm 51:17
The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit,
A broken and conctrite heart
These, O God, You will not despise

when i read this.. i cried...
i felt God's love strongly in me..

hope more ppl wil get comfort n encourage through my post..

Thx God...

baRA BAba BABA~!! xD

2008-08-28T22:58:00.003+08:00

since i hav a chance to online n didnt blog for so long..
i'll write little bout my life recently..

well.. thx God in all ways!!!!!!!!!! xD
i really hav to say tat n tell the world tat how God love me.. xD

well.....
i believe God is openin ways for my dance..
as i've said last time.. my instructor is startin his own studio n no more trainin classes for me..

but now.. finally my teacher's studio getting better n he's plannin to train a group of dancers for his studio n for competitions..

n of coz..
im in the ''going to be train' dancers list..

haha.. im so happy.. my teacher will start planning for the trainin, schedule, category n etc after his weddin dinner at 7/9/2008..

so still prayin the plans will go smoothly.. coz its not officially started the plan..

he also ask me which style i wanna concentrate beside hiphop..
then i say electric boogie..
elestric boogie includes popping, boogaloo, waves, king tart, animation n more..

wel.. coz beside hiphop my 2nd best is electric boogie i think.. lolz..
coz i very sucks at lockin.. sob.. mus practise more bout it.. @@

well.. still paryin for everythin.. Gog really love me.. He always open ways for me..
so.. i cant be cry baby anymore.. mus be strong in Him..

2008-08-05T14:21:00.006+08:00

Tagged by Caleb.. =)

1.The rules of the game get posted at the beginning.
2. Each player answers the questions about themselves.
3. At the end of the game the player then tags 5 people and posts their names, then goes to their blogs and leaves a comment, letting them know they got tagged and ask them to play and read your blog.

Starting time : 2.32PM

Name : Rebecca Chan Yuet Ling
Sisters : 0
Brothers : 3
Shoe size : 5 or 5.5..
Height : 169 or 170? hmm..
Where do you live : In my house
Favourite drinks : Fresh Coke...with ice too...
Favourite breakfast : Depends..

HAVE YOU EVER...

been on a plane : yup
Swam in the ocean : Nope i think..
Fallen asleep in school : Of course..
Favourite sleeping time : History...
Broken someone's heart : Yea.. have to admit it...
Fell off your chair : Yup.....
Sat by the phone and waited for someone to call : hmm..is waitin miss calls counted?? lolz..
What is your room like : A room tat goin to tranform to my personal dance studio? haha...
What's right beside you : my kitties..my hp.....mouse?
What is the last thing you ate : rosted pork rice

EVER HAD...

Chicken pox : I was 5 I think....
Sore throat : last time quite often but now free from it.. xD...
Stitches : nope...
Broken nose : Nope....

DO YOU...

Believe in love at first sight : depends....depends....
Like picnics : Yea but dun like sunny days.. ><.. may be cloudy day wil be fine.. =)

WHO WAS..

the last person you danced with : my show partners? hmm..
the last person who last made you smile : You know who you are =)...
the last person you last yelled at : My eldest bro i think.. ><><

TODAY DID YOU...

Talk to someone you like : Ohh!!!!
Kissed anyone : erm.. little caleb.. batman n victor? (my kitties)
Get sick : yea.. felt tire..
Talk to an ex : Nope
Miss someone : =)
Eat : wish i could drink milo kosong ice now.. >< align="center">
What time is it now :2.51pm

5 things I was doing 10 years ago
1. Doing my homework
2. Watching TV.
3. Dancing
4. stressing
5. Eating...defecating....breathing.....

5 things on my to-do list today
1. exercise to keep fit
2. Drink lots of H2O too..
3. Blogging..
4. Being beautiful.. read alot of popteen mags..
5. Be happy

5 snacks I enjoy
1. Pink dolphin.. missin it.. sob
2. Nestle yogurt drink.. tropical flavour
3. Roti telur planta..
4. Chocolate..
5. Pudding..

5 things I would do if I were a billionaire
1. Tour around the world
2. Get a Mac, iPhone or Haptic?.all the tech stuff I've always wanted....
3. same as Caleb.. a blank cheque for my parents..
4. giv offerin to church
5. be beautiful n stylish.. xD

5 of my bad habits
1. Lazy
2. too negative
3. Sleep to "early" =)
4. worryin too much
5. not satisfy

5 places I have lived in
1. Earth
2. Malaysia
3. Selangor
4. Seri Kembangan
5. My house

5 persons i tag
1. Pik Yee
2. Amanda
3. ??
4. ??
5. ?? sry i hav no idea.. ><

Blessed Day

2008-06-30T11:52:00.005+08:00

Happy Birthday to me

Happy Birthday to Rebecca

Happy Birthday to me..

YEAH!!!! today is my Birthday.. xD

very happy n thx every1...

wel.. although din receive any present..

but this consider as my Bday present i think.. xD

so nice.. ><

really wanna ask this PS Sifu to teach me how to make d.. ><

hehe...

anyway.. today i nid to go for practise again.. so.. not celebratin.. ><

but mostly wanna Thx God for creatin me.. xD

so i can meet wonderful ppls espeacially some1..

yea.. my *best fren*.. xp

anyway.. he made a header for me too..

so im usin it for my blog header .. nice hor.. xD

Dance Performance

2008-06-28T19:09:00.002+08:00

Finally!!!

my 1st dance show performance of being a artist back up dancer..

so happy wit it... xD

wel.. if u ask me who's the artist then i can tel u im not sure.. ><

dun hit me la..

coz.. they jus newly debut...

their CD is launchint thrusday.. ^^..

is a male group.. 2 members..

msia singer.. last year astro singin contest top 10..

today got practise wit them..

well.. they kinda friendly.. ^^

not realy remember their name.. 1 is Frankie n 1.. forgot.. =.="

sorry.. ><

well.. workin hard n the practise is tiring..

but very excited bout it.. xD

thx God for everythin... =)

Decisions

2008-06-27T09:51:00.007+08:00

haiz............

i felt so....

confuse....

but.. 人的尽头就是神的开始。。

yesterday my dancer teacher ask me go study..

coz last time he said he wanna train me n better i focus on dance n dun study.....

but now.. situations changed....

he's not in the Urban Groove dance network.. he came out n open his own studio....

so can say its start from zero....

so he cant comfirm me anythin now..

he say nid to wait he's ready n im ready oni wil train..

so he ask me study 1st to hav a back road to go....

coz now he dun hav a stabil economy such as clients, shows n student.....

he also worryin for him self....

arg........

pray pray pray.. God pls show me a way....

so.. i might goin for study now.. The ONe Academy?

still prayin..

if studyinThe One Academy may be wil enter January intake.. ><

stil askin God.........

Here in My Life

2008-06-25T23:00:00.003+08:00

I have never walked on water
Felt the waves beneath my feet but
At your Word Lord, I’ll receive Your
Faith to walk on oceans deep

And I remember how You found me:
In that very same place
All my failing surely would've drowned me
But You made a way

You are my freedom
Jesus you’re the reason
I’m kneeling again at Your throne
Where would I be without You
Here in my life, here in my life?

You have said that all the heavens
Sing for joy at one who finds
The way to freedom, truth of Jesus
Bought from death into His life

And I remember how You saw me:
Through the eyes of Your grace
And though the cost was Your beloved for me

Still you made a way!

this song is so meaningful.....

kneeling at His throne.. =)

if u wish to download click HERE

Speechless

2008-06-23T00:22:00.004+08:00

Too much to say....

Too much to think..

Too much to decide...

I want to rest for awhile.......

Its pain........

Im in pain....

but.......

I'll let go....

n let God.....

amen.......

I'm Back!!

2008-06-12T13:20:00.004+08:00

Finally!! i'm back!! xD
to much to say n too much to face...
dunno wer to start from...
but sadly.. dunno how to express.. ZZZzzzz...

1stly.. Thx God for everthing..
i've received alot from A4J conference (4/6/08-7/6/08)...
summore God spoke to me...
先求神的国和神的意，这些他都必加添给我们（生命中的一切）..
come to Jesus feet like Mary..
God also spoke to me bout my ministry too..
serve Him as a child wit pure heart..
obey Him n inHim there's no fear..
n i believe!! God wont lie to us!!!!!
Amen!!!

actually before this camp i wasn't expectin anythin from this camp..
coz i've been alots of camp..
but this time was totally dif..
it really reminds us..
going back to the 1st time when we serve God n the Hearts tat are on fire for Him..
coz i mus admit it sometimes being an old christian.. i'm not as alert as last time..
n my heart cant really obey Him or trust in Him whole heartaly...
but this time really clear all my sinful mind set n turn back to the right path...

tats all for today.. haha.. coz havin fever, flu n sorethrout..
i pray tat i'll recover before 15/06/08..
coz i hav dance n singin during tat day..
is an evangelis meeting...

God bless every1!! xD

YEAH!!

2008-05-01T19:46:00.004+08:00

YEEPEE!!!!! i'm workin at SEED!!! xD

thx God for everythin n thx everyone tat prayed for me..

i'll start workin at next wednesday 07/05/08 1.30pm.. xD

15/05/08.... 1 month for us.......
i hav to keep going on...
hope *he*'s alright..
miss *him* so much....

爱很简单

2008-04-30T16:38:00.002+08:00

爱很简单
词：娃娃
曲：陶喆

*忘了是怎么开始
也许就是对你一种感觉
忽然间发现自己
已深深爱上你真的很简单
爱的地暗天黑都已无所谓
是是非非无法抉择
没有后悔为爱日夜去跟随
那个疯狂的人是我
I LOVE YOU 无法不爱着你 BABY 说你也爱我喔～
I LOVE YOU 永远不愿意 BABY 失去你
不可能更快乐只要能在一起做什么都可以
虽然世界变个不停用最真诚的心让爱变的简单
我爱的地暗天黑都已无所谓
是是非非无法抉择喔～
没有后悔为爱日夜去跟随
那个疯狂的人是我喔～
I LOVE YOU 一直在这里BABY 一直在爱你喔～
I LOVE YOU oh yes I do
永远都不放弃这爱的权利
如果你还有一些困惑 Oh No 请贴着我的心倾听
听我说着我爱你 yes I do

永远都不放弃这爱的权利
I LOVE YOU 我一直在这里BABY 一直在爱你喔～也
I LOVE YOU 喔～也
永远都不放弃这爱的权利*

就是爱你

2008-04-30T11:18:00.002+08:00

就是爱你

曲:陶喆
词:娃娃
木吉他 & 曼陀林:Dean Parks

*我一直都想对你说
你给我想不到的快乐
像绿洲给了沙漠
说你会永远陪着我
做我的根我翅膀
让我飞也有回去的窝
我愿意我也可以付出一切也不会可惜
就在一起看时间流逝要记得我们相爱的方式
就是爱你爱着你
有悲有喜
有你平淡也有了意义
就是爱你爱着你
甜蜜又安心
那种感觉就是你
我一直都想对你说
你给我想不到的快乐
像绿洲给了沙漠
说你会永远陪着我
做我的根我翅膀
让我飞也有回去的窝
我愿意真的愿意付出所有也要保护你
在一起时间继续流逝请记得我有多么的爱你
就是爱你爱着你
不弃不离
不在意一路有多少风雨
就是爱你爱着你
放在你手心
灿烂的幸福全给你
就是爱你爱着你
我都愿意
就是爱你爱着你
要我们在一起*

SEED

2008-04-27T22:16:00.007+08:00

well.. Thx God that something happened today so i can blog bout it..

okie.. where do i start now..

hmm...
lets talk bout my dance..

my studio currently under construction coz moving to another bigger place..
main recent is my studio is next to a budget hotel..
n the hotel complained that our studio is too noisy coz after 12am my studio stil got trainin classes..

n my instructor is going for his honey moon in May..
so my training lesson all those stuffs probably start at June..

so.. May.. kinda free..

so today i went to Jusco, Cheras Selatan bout 8.30pm to look for a job..
as i've knew that Hytex Studio ( selling Nike, Addidas, sports stuffs) is vacancyin..
so i thought of going there to apply..
i thought is walk in interview.. but is calling interview..
wel.. i've saved the contact number..
the requirements are..

full time,
fluent in english,
passion for sports,
minimum SPM holder,
experince..

hmm..
but dunno y not feel like going to apply Hytex Studio.. ><>no experince on workin is accepted!!!
wow!!!

so.. i went in n interviewed..
the girl that interview me is quite friendly..
but she's not the marketing manager...><
the marketing manager is away for this week..

so.. after chattin with her bout wat day i mostly cant work..
wat time n etc..
i told her i cant work on sunday from morning until 3pm coz i must go to church..
so she help me noted down bout this..
n i've filled the form..

then she told me that she'll inform her marketing manager..
then i asked her how's the interview will be?
then she told me jus chatting..
bout y u wanna work at SEED..
do u like SEED.. those stuffs la..

so i told her i like SEED..
n she say she know coz i'm wearing SEED's belt when i was interviewin.. ><

thx God the belt finally helped me coz i bought it for RM59.90.. =.=|| .. LOLZZZ..

n then when i left the shop bout 10 mins..
she called me tell me that her marketing manager will hav 2nd interview with me next week further information she'll call back..

phew~~ Thx God.. at least they will consider of employing me..

hmm..
okie.. lets talk bout the salary..
RM4.50 per hour for part time..
9 hours a day..
5 days off for a month..
commision..
not bad right.. haha..

but the main thing i wanna go work..
coz.. i'm too free...
when a person is too free she will think lotsa stuffs..........
think too much will coz ''heart attack''..

u know wat i mean right.. haha..

jus wanna get myself busy..
but wont busy until forget to hav time with God, church n ministry..
jus..
need to do something everday.....

well.. i wont giv up on my dance or as i've said i wanna learn piano to improve my dance(rythm all those stuffs to flow better)..

the label of my belt.. haha

well.. everything is in God's hands..
hope He'll giv me this job..
anyway.. Thx God for everythin i'm sure He'll lead my way..

well.. everyone jus pray for me ya.. xD

to be continue..

2008-04-26T08:48:00.000+08:00

i think.... i wont be bloggin in this 2 months..

it jus.. too hard....
i open this blog becoz of him..
but now...

i might always stare at my blog..
i might keep readin wat i wrote again n again..
i might update if somethings really happen...

jus.. unpredictable..
i'll be back....

I love You More than Life

2008-04-26T08:28:00.000+08:00

More than Life
United Hillsong - With Hearts as One

Stand by everything You said
Stand by the promises we made
Let go of everythingI've done
I'll run into Your open arms
And all I know

Chorus:
I love You more than life
I love You more than life

Fall back on everything You've done
Fall back on everlasting arms
When all the world is swept away
You are all the things I need
You're the air I breathe

How can it be
You were the one on the cross
Lifted for all our shame?
How can it be
The scars in Your hands are for me?
You are the king of all

God i'll let go n let You....

Promise

2008-04-22T00:25:00.000+08:00

okie.. from today onwards..
i'll stay away from *his* blog.. ><.. until 2 months later.. as we've promised.. really happy that *he*'s alright... God's also healing n comforting me..

*no worries ya.. God will take care of me n *you**

a pair of jeans huh...
Good start.. xD

i'm sure i've hav to chance to see *u* in jeans.. LOLZ!!!

too much to say..
too much to miss..
everything is so much until no one to share?

No..
God is here for me..
He's the one that helps me move on..
pursue after Him.. thrist for Him..

praying for *his* ministry n heart..
future.. appealing..
work.. health....
everything.....

*sob*
*okie...*
*i love u too.. miss u so much*
*we've promise each other n also God.. to focus on Him*
*stay strong too*

My LG KU-380

2008-04-22T00:00:00.000+08:00

yep.. today got my new phone..
bought from maxis.. jus Rm349..
coz using postpaid plans..
but my family already using it for more than 8 years..
an entry phone for 3G..
but its really really a low ent phone.. =.=..

anyway.. Thx God for everything.. xD
at least got a better phone than my ex phone..

if i really got e the whole in this bag.. its totally insane .. =.=

my small bro n i both bought the same phone..
i'm taking the white 1 n he'll be using the black 1..





cheese!!

okie.. i noe i look pale.. =.=.. every1 pls dun get scare!! ><
i'm not a ghost!! ><

lolz.. i go curi snapshot on my small bro..

Pieces of my Heart

2008-04-21T14:14:00.000+08:00

missing the piece of puzzle in my heart..

my life is imcomplete without *him*..

Lord.. i need you....

McFlurry..

2008-04-21T13:39:00.000+08:00

i really miss him..
1st time buyin McFlurry for myself..

yesterday went to IOI mall with my parents n my small bro..
coz usualy my small bro is the 1 who buys it everytime..

n McFlurry is too sweet for me when i try it in the 1st time...

but yesterday's McFlurry..
strangely is too bitter for me.......

i was chattin bout *him* with my family when i was eatin my McFlurry...
all the sweet n sour times we had...
feel so happy...

thx God tat i'm alive n i can still manage to move on...

*i miss you*
*be strong in Him*

Trying Hard..

2008-04-19T22:42:00.000+08:00

Trying hard everytime...
i thought i really can control myself n everythin's alright....

BUT..

Its really HARDER than I THOUGHT!!!!!!

i really really very very miss *him*...
although we've promise each other not to keep in contact but still i will sneak in to his blog n......
haiz......

*sorry... i just too miss you*

this pic means tat.. althought we love each other but still.. we cant say *i Love You* for the whole year....
its jus so near n just a line away...
But....

i wonder he read my blog too.. haha..
but i've to admit that i read his...
Sorry....

and.. i knew it..

n this is wat i wanna say to you..

too...

but still...
i believe God will comfort n help us go through all these...

*trust in Him*

Layang-layang

2008-04-19T22:29:00.000+08:00

well.. today our church youths went for layang-layang at Taman Metropolitan..
quite fun though..

but my small bro got a big smack down n hurt his whrist.. =.=|||

after 20 mins.. still trying to fly my kite..
but felt kinda fedup coz no wind =.=..
summore run run run... whole body sweat like get wet in the rain..

then my fren n i went for photo shootin.. xD
well.. funny posses n all those stuffs..

no photos with me coz my phone too lame n all is in my fren's camera..
probably tomolo i'll get the photos..

Paint my Heart with Your L♡VE

2008-04-18T17:57:00.000+08:00

its the 3rd day....
its harder than i thought...
but i mus be strong..
for what i've promise *him* n Him..

i keep tryin to turn my focus on Him..
i felt so touch n comfort when i choose to draw near to Him..

well.. its hard for me in this period..
tryin to figure out wat i'm gonna do...

study?
diploma? degree?

dance?
studio? NAFA?
professional? certs?
hiphop? ballet?
music? piano?

work?
part time? full time?

all of these drivin me crazy..
wish to discuss with *him*..

but.. its all right.. i'll discuss with Him..
coz He's my Lord my God..
He'll lead my path..

i felt dissapointed when i realize tat NAFA needs ballet to enter..

then i went to ask my studio(Urban Groove Dance Network,http://www.ugdn.com.my/) instructor..

i felt relief when i heard wat he told me...

''i was thinking of training you..
but if u really follow me u cant go for college to study..
the training is like full time..
for ur standard now u can teach begginner classes in my studio..''

then i asked him..
'' will u willin to train me if i follow u?
wat will i get if i choose this path?''

he answered..
'' yes i can train you.. if there's any show i'll let u go for shows..
if there's some advertistment jobs i will bring you too..
n if u help me teach beginnner class i'll pay u salary too..''

i felt very happy when my instructor told me these..
but i've hav to ask Him is this wat He wants me to be?

if i go this path i'll take part time piano class..
to improve my dance..
if i go this path i no need to face all the pressure for exams to get a diploma or degree..
n i able get proffesional certificate from UK as a hiphop instructor if i train hard for it..

but everythin is not comfirmed..
i wont get any diploma or degree cert if i go this path..
n my education level only stopped at SPM..

i was thinkin going for A levels or STPM then only follow my instructor..

but my dad tell me not to watse time on these..

''its okie if u wanna keep dancin in the studio..
arts this kind of things very hard to say..
as a diploma n degree in dance..
doesnt mean tat u're really good in it..
u jus pay for the course fees n u'll get a certificate..
if u go or studio is a more professional way coz u train n work it out..''

sometimes i wish to get something in a high speed..

but this time i really realize must be slow..
not too rush..
God will look after me..
no need to worry..

Him, Jesus Christ will lead me..
comfort me..
n fill me with His l♡ve

Undescribe-able

2008-04-18T15:12:00.001+08:00

Part of my feelings..

*he cant hear it...*

*it really happens..*

Lord comfort me n *him*..

I love You...
I need You....

Fall in This Place

2008-04-18T14:20:00.000+08:00

Fall in this Place
Planetshakers - Pick it Up

Take me to that place Lord

Where there's nothing else but me n You

Longing for Your presence

I know that You calling me to You

Here I stand and long for Your embrace

Nothing else could ever take Your place

Come Holy Spirit fall in this place

I need more and more of You

Fill me again with the power of Your spirit

Lord I'm crying out for more and more of You

Lord i need You now..
Fill me with Ur presence..

i need You....

Be Strong

2008-04-14T18:21:00.000+08:00

Time will Tell...
God will Tell..

Be strong in Him..

missing our precious memories..
our feelings..
n promises..

everything to be continue.....

*be strong in God*
*love him 1st*
*i love u n miss u*

ZEN

2008-04-14T16:00:00.000+08:00

PC Fair in Msia at KLCC...
well.. crowded with ppl n hardly breathe.. ><

last day for the fair so every1 grabbing IT stuffs..

my dad bought a 24' LCD Dell monitor, a Brother's printer..
n he also bought a Creative Zen 8GB for me.. haha..

i can organize my musics, photos, videos n more..
but i cant ''organize'' my feelings..

stil cant be describe...... God pls comfort me n *him*..

.......

2008-04-14T00:26:00.001+08:00

................................................

Its hard to describe...
Its hard to say.....
the feelings tat i'm havin now....

i jus can pray..
seek after God..
persue after Him..

LORD MY HEART IS BEATING FOR YOU!!

God's time

2008-04-05T17:33:00.000+08:00

'' i'm boring bout my life being a christian..
always goes to church n hav to face this kind of person........''

'' i wanna live my own life..
i believe i have my own time...''

when i heard these words i really feel sad bout it n keep praying for him..
its not the him tat i love but is my dearest cousin..

we grown up together..
cry together..
laugh together..
n share our true feelings..

but i've advice him.. its not ur own time but its God's time..
he felt tat i've became a holy freak after coming from Joshua13..
he miss me alot n wanna chit chat wit me..

''everythin happened..
is between u n God but not man''
''but remember..
no matter wat happen dun forget that God always by your side''
'' i believe u'll learn something in every ways..''

these are the only words i can tell him..
i cant change him but only God can..

as i've said..

''we'll do the easy ones..
let god finish the hard ones..''

i'll always remember him in prayers...
will be beside him if he needs me..

I STILL LOVE YOU

2008-04-05T00:56:00.000+08:00

God will loves you no matter what you are..

''Your word is the lamp of my feet..
And a light for my path''

''He restores my soul.
He guides me in paths of righteousness for His name's sake.
Even though i walk to the valley of the shadow of death,
I will fear no evil,
for You are with me;
Your rod n Your staff,
they comfort me..''

i'm sry i'm not there for him..
but i hope God will comfort him..

*sorry*
*i really love you*
*miss ya*

Sunday!! @@

2008-04-04T14:13:00.000+08:00

cant wait for Sunday.. xD
cant tell u wats gonna happen..

its a secret btw the hearts of me n him..

only we can feel the difference..

Performing arts..
NAFA..

PlanetShakers..
Thursday..

Harris..
Him..

*miss ya*
*L♡va ya..*

KL's Life..... (-.-)Zzz

2008-04-03T16:48:00.000+08:00

''Rain drops falling on my head~~''
The sky cries like dogs n cats..
once raining.. u'll take hours to go somewhere in KL..

i was hmming this song while i was in the traffic jam..
i was going to my dance studio to hav my hiphop class..
missed 1 n a half month class n really hope i can attend this time..

many JB dwellers say.. '' if u were in JB.. u'll be easily robbed''
but in KL.. ''if u were in KL, traffic jam is ur best fren in ur life''
swt.. =.=

i've been jamming under the rain for more than 2 hours..
n i din get to attend my dance class..
but jus a U-turn to home needed 2 hours..
KL's LIFE!!! @@

i've sms him bout this case.. n he said.. '' tats y u should come to JB''
wat a good idea.. LOLZ..
i really hope i could stay there too..
after readin his blog..
really touched..
really thx God i've met him..

i believe we'll able to overcome every hardness n bitterness in our life..
althtough we may fear bout our future..
but at this time i wan to love him with all my heart.. of coz God's the 1st..
if human being he's the 1st in my heart..

jus love the way he is..
the way he stares at me..
the way he speaks to me..
the way he cares for me..
everything he did for me....

I pray to God :
''Lord Jesus..pls look after us..
we'll let You leads our path..
and also increase our faith towards You dear lord..
n Lord pls strenghten our hearts........
Amen.. ''

really hope tat he has a same heart wit me......

*l♡ve you*
*be strong*
*miss ya*

Future

2008-04-01T16:44:00.000+08:00

after coming back from Joshua camp..
alots of caring question or somehow pressuring questions coming out from my frens n relatives..

''what r u doing now? workin? studyin?''
''wat u planned to study?''
''how's ur SPM?''
n etc.....

i really praying hard to God..
let him leads my way...
performing arts.. a dangerous subject wer u mus hav talent n of coz hardworking..
wat i really worry is my talent.. wer's the limit of my talent..
really scare until 1 day there's a fullstop for my dance..
i really scare exams. competition,test, audition, n etc since i was young..
i always ask y mus we takin all these?
coz i scare i get a failed in it or lousy results..
i've been givin myself too much pressure..
but Thx God in this camp..
God really help me n show his love for me..
i've learnt everythin..

'' Just let Go
Let God..
We'll do the easy ones..
Let God finish the Hard ones.. ''

my dad always scolds me.. ''y r u worrying so much?''
i really Thx God he given me an understanding n caring parents..
God gav them n *him* to me to prove how much He loves me..

as for now..
i'll let God lead my path..
prayin hard for this sunday..(coz i'm going to SG to find college)
*n of coz tryin to manage time to go to funfair.. xD*

*draw near to God*
*will inform u soon bout my schedule*
*L♡ve*
*miss you*

@@

http://joshua13.ning.com

2008-04-01T00:20:00.000+08:00

we all havin so much fun giving comments n looking at the pics we took in J13..
really thx God for everything..

Thx Him for giving us knowing each others n hav wonderful times..

i hope every1 always keep in touch n always log in to our J13 website..

love u all..

*wish u were there ><*
*love ya n miss u lotsa*
*thx God for everythin*

Love song ♡ When u're Gone

2008-03-31T21:51:00.000+08:00

I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd need you there when I cry
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lieIs made up on your side

When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
All the words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it OK
I miss you

I've never felt this way before
Everything that I do
Reminds me of you
And the clothes you leftthey lie on the floor
And they smell just like you
I love the things that you do

When you walk away
I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now?

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
And when you're gone
All the words I need to hear to always get me through the day
And make it OK
I miss you

We were made for each other
Out here forever
I know we were
Yeah Yeah
And all I ever wanted it was for you to know
Everything I do I give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe,
I need to feel you here with me
Yeah

When you're gone
The pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're gone
The face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear will always get me through the day
And make it OK
*I Miss You* ♡

New Day ♡ When You're Gone

2008-03-31T08:30:00.000+08:00

hi everyone!! its a new day for me to start missing someone.. ><>
really thx god for everythin n i really miss my frens there. ><

*be strong*
*love God always*
*n.. i ♡you*